Wow....I can not believe where the year has gone! So many things have happened...the good, the bad, the crazy and insane! We had no real Winter or snow to speak of.....no real Spring either! But May finally came and went....and we welcomed Prince#5 into our lives. June came and went as well and Prince#1 graduated 8th grade! And so here we are sitting in the middle of July......and just weeks away from school starting back up! Whatever happened to our Summers? Our real summers...the ones where the kids got out the 1st of June and didn't go back until September 1st! Those were the best Summers.....the longer the better. I am not ready to send Prince#1 to High School or send my little Prince#2 to Kindergarten! My babies are growing up and I want it to stop!!! SIGH....but I know I can not stop it from happening.
The last few weeks have been an emotional roller coaster of emotions for me! After having Prince#5 I have been thinking a lot about Prince#4....I miss him and wish he was here with all of us...I look at prince#5 and wonder if he would have looked like him or had his smile, his nose or his eyes. I try not to think about him but he is always there! And I do believe that just a few weeks ago when I closed the "baby factory" for good is what has brought on this tidal wave of emotions! So for the last few weeks everyday has been a struggle for me to hold it together. And as prince#5 grows and changes I feel just a little more sad that my babies are growing up so fast!
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| Prince#1 a long time ago |
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| Prince#1 he is becoming a young man |
Prince#1 is growing up to be a young man. He has a long way to go as he is still young in some respects to his age..he will be 14 this Sept. but only in a number. He will come into his own when he is ready and not by force. "Some people" think they can make him grow up...but those people know nothing about parenting a child.....especially a child like prince#1!
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| Prince#2 in the NICU |
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| Prince#2 the one who almost gave me heart failure!! |
Prince#2 is going to be 5 this October....can it be...can he really be 5? It seems just like yesterday I brought him home from the NICU! I have held on to him so tight after almost losing him and have a hard time let him go! I still worry the most about him....we both do!
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| Prince#3 so sweet once |
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| Prince#3 can you see his little horns behind that smile! |
Now Prince#3 has been one of those children that surprises you around every corner! At fist we thought he was going to be the quiet one....the one to stand back and watch take it all in and be scared of everything! Well we were dead wrong on half of all that! We make the statement that you can just see his little horns behind that smile because well....he can be such a little devil! Not in a bad way but just not a good one either! Example: Prince#2 can be playing just fine all by himself when out of no where you hear screaming and crying coming from prince#2 and them him yelling for you because prince#3 has just walked into the room and pulled his brothers hair for no reason and ran off to hide!! And prince#3 knows he is in trouble when you call him in to ask him why.....because he walks in with his head hung down and a frown on his face. You ask him why did you do that and he will say "because Jackson won't play with me!" Did you ask Jackson if he would play with you? "NO"......Really kid! And there are days that he does these devilish things for no reason...or as he told his Nana one day "because it is fun!" We hope that prince#5 does not have prince#3's BIG personality........we just don't think there's room for another one like him!
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| Prince#5 1 day old |
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| Prince#5 look at that smile..8 weeks old growing too fast! |
Prince#5 well what can I say about him he is only 10 weeks old....but so full of personality! Nothing like prince#3 at least not yet! His brothers love him......one (prince#3) a little to much maybe.....and it has taken prince#1 (10weeks almost) to come around and love on him! I think the smile prince#5 gave his big brother melted the ice wall his brother put towards him. And he is being a good helper....which really surprised me! But I am very glad to see that prince#1 is slowly starting to listen to the things I am try to tell him. And of course prince#2 has been my biggest helper yet....even if it is a little to helpful!
See my boys are growing up to fast...as much as I want them to grow and see there personalities develop...I don't want them to get any bigger! I guess I am selfish in a way. But my boys have brought me so much joy. And every time one of them has entered into my life I have loved them just a much as the one before....we always wonder how that is possible....how we can love so many little boys (and girls if you have them) as much as the next one! Our hearts have so much to give our babies. And yet my heart has just a little bit more to give.....but I am saving that for someone special and I know I will see him again one day and I will give him his piece of my heart!
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| Prince#4 (my Evan Daniel) always remembered and always loved! |
